A good friend sent this message as a response to this vlog
Just watched your vlog on.
This is a vid I did a year ago about faceing one of my biggest demons and coming to terms with my mind.
I have mild schizophrenia, extreme bi-polar, insomnia and a range of other things that doctors have labeled me.
I have attempted suicide more times than I would like to admit, abused every drug and solvent I could buy or steal .
I cry most nights, I fear people, I’m scared to do anything because was trained to be wrong, I kept my rape and other abuses to my self from age 7 to around 15 when I had a severe mental breakdown.
At 15 I told my then best friend what I went through and through fear of his own he rejected me and never spoke to me again, the church I want to told their youth group that 90% of men who are sexually abused will turn into rapists.
I feared the people I was around and the church I was at, I feared everyone and never spoke again until I met my son’s mother, out of fear I destroyed our relationship and myself.
I still cry most nights as I am currently, I have night terrors that cause me to fear sleep, I have woken many times to my bed saturated because I was that scared.
I speak openly about everything because I have found so many men that are scared to talk, scared to admit they cry and scared to admit they are human.
I watched your vlog with a year in my eye knowing that finally people are willing to address this properly and not just use it as a gimmick.
Sorry for the rant.
I respect you alot Nic, thank you.
Much love Scott for sending that. its good to know people have the strength to speak out
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